Wednesday June 10th, 2009

Sustained

I woke up this morning and it kind of hit me like a truck all over again, but david is still sleeping so I had a few moments to sit down and give you an update.  We took a flight last night from San Francisco to Minnesota as David has been referred to Mayo Clinic here in Rochester.  His initial appointment is Thursday at 6:45am. We thank God for this referral for many reasons…not only is Mayo at the top of the list for neuro science, but we are also closer to home and are one step closer to a plan of treatment.

Emotionally we are both up and down. There are moments when I am so full of the Holy Spirit of God that all I can do is praise Him and sing songs.  I want to tell anyone who will listen to me “I love you, O Lord my strength!”  I’ve been praying for months for the courage to be more direct and vocal about my faith in Jesus.  My friends, the time is now.  I want to tell anyone who doesn’t know my Jesus to run to the word of God and read the book of John.  If you believe on Him He will save you from your sins, give you eternal life, and fill you with his all-powerful Holy Spirit, and you will be made new.   I want to tell Christians who are living for anything but Christ to drop it all. Drop everything and run to Him.  Hunger for him as for your very life.  Hunger and thirst for righteousness.  You will never find peace and happiness in the things of this world, in achievement or within yourself.  You will forever be wandering.  This is truly what is in my heart and has been driven home for me so strongly in the past several months.  Even in suffering I am finding joy, because I know our loving God and I know that life on this earth is not what we are living for.  We hope in heaven, in eternity and in standing someday as a workman approved unto God.  I desire for my heart and life to be completely God’s and God’s alone.  To know Him is to know love, and I am only begining to taste of it’s fullness.

There are also moments when fear tries to takes its grip  on me and strangle the life out of me.  The room starts to grow black and I feel my feet coming out from under me.  Then God reminds me that fear is a defeated foe.  That I can claim victory and Satan has to flee from me in the name of Jesus.  Praise our God!  This is where I know all the prayers of the saints are standing in the gap for me and for David.  We feel sustained…david described it as pillows all around him.  I feel it as a current underneath my feet.  I feel escorted along as though carried by angels.  Sometimes I’m not even sure how I’ve gotten from here to there.  Especially my flight from Grand Rapids to San Francisco all alone after just having heard the news.  I am here to testify that God is beginning to make real to me that there is no darkness Jesus cannot sustain you through.  We are so thankful for each person praying for us and for all the people spreading the word about our situation.  Thankful is such a trite word.  We are amazed at how quickly God has raised this multitude of prayer warriors I requested, and once again we are also amazed at the power of the internet.  =)  We read each email, blog comment, text message and facebook comment and drink in the continual outpouring of encouragement and hope.  It definitely gives us a sense of being surrounded.  It continually fills up our well of faith.

I can tell you there is no one I would rather go through this with than David.  I love Him so dearly.  He is my best friend and soul mate.  From the moment I met him I knew I’d found that person I could trust.  Even in this trial we find ourselves laughing over things and seeing the humor in different situations we’ve been subjected to.  Someone commented on his Facebook page that “humor follows him even to the hospital bed.”   It’s so true.  He’s an amazing person.  His friends will testify to that.  He’s going to pull through this and come out tried as gold.  I know God has BIG plans for his life.  My prayer through all of this is that many will come to the Lord, be filled with His Spirit, and that people’s faith will be renewed by God.  According to his word, that is the only thing worth living for and I believe it to be so.

Know that we hold each one of you (even strangers) close to our heart.  We love you.  Thank you for all of the offers for help coming in from everyone.  I wish I could write each one of you individually, but please know that I have bookmarked your emails and will definitely call on you when the need arises!  We know we can’t get through this alone.  I am so especially touched by the photography community.   I blogged a few months ago that I felt blessed to be a part of it.  How little did I know at that time what a blessing it would prove to be.  Through your blogs, twitter and facebook you have managed to spread our story literally across the world and raise up people to pray within a mere 48 hours.  God bless you.

I desperately want to share these scriptures that have been in mind in the past few months….

“And this is the testimony, that God has given us eternal life, and this life is in His Son.  He who has the Son has life, he who does not have the Son of God does not have life.  These things I have written to you who believe in the name of the Son of God, that you may know that you have eternal life, and that you may continue to believe in the name of the Son of God.”

I John 5:11

“Therefore we do not lose heart.  Even though our outward man is perishing, yet the inward man is being renewed day by day.  For our light affliction, which is but for a moment, is working for us a far more exceeding and eternal weight of glory, while we do not look at the things which are seen.  For the things which are seen are temporary, but the things which are not seen are eternal.”

Ephesians 4:16-18

“Now I know that the Lord saves His anointed.  He will answer them from his holy heaven with the saving strength of His right hand.  Some trust in chariots, and some in horses, but we will remember the name of the Lord our God.  They have bowed down and fallen, but we have risen and stand upright.  Save, Lord!  May the King answer us when we call.”

Psalm 20:6-9

And a verse God has spoken over my life time and time again…

“Have you not known? Have you not heard? The everlasting God, the Lord, the Creator of the ends of the earth neither faints nor is weary.  His understanding is unseachable.  He gives power to the weak, and to those who have no might He increases strength.  Even the youths shall faint and be weary, and the young men shall utterly fall, But those who wait on the Lord shall renew their strength; They shall mount up with wings like eagles, they shall run and not be weary, they shall walk and not faint.”

Isaiah 40:28-31

I love you, Lord!!!!!

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